IT'S COMPLICATED YOU SEE............

First I want to acknowledge a new friend....David S. from SoCal, thanks for stopping by and look for an e mail from me soon !

This will be a very random collection of thoughts so bear with me.

We all know stress is the enemy of PWP but how do you avoid stress these days ? Some PWP find a way to quit their jobs, spend time with family, exercise a whole bunch and apparently can exist in a zen like state 24/7. I am actually happy for those who can do that. Unfortunately I can't swing it right now. That's a little frustrating to me I admit.

I feel lucky though. I am still able to work. I can do pretty much everything I want to although sometimes I need a hand for a really tough job like changing a motor or building a flower bed. By far the biggest impact to me right now is the loss of some use on my left side and the constant fatigue after about six hours of activity. I know it is distressing to my wife when I have to crash for an hour or two and I worry about that a lot but I am trying to take shorter power naps so as not to take time from the family. If you have PD, you know what I mean about just having to lay down for a few minutes....

This past week has really been a tough one and it won't get any easier for a couple more weeks. My son swapped turbo engine into his road car over the weekend and is now in the final stages of that. Very Very proud of his expertise, work ethic, and above all his willingness to learn whatever it takes to make his dreams come true. He came up with a saying a few years ago when we were working on a GEO Tracker he wanted to build.
"It's not what you buy, it's what you build" \
Great stuff !
Along with his project, I recently made a deal to trade the yellow race truck at the top of this blog for a 1969 Camaro project car - See Quote Above...:-)
We had to pull the motor and transmission out of the truck today so it could leave Friday. Needless to say I am beat but excited about this new project- more on that in my next post.
So I am busy in the shop, busy at work, trying to get a Mothers Day trip to the beach in this weekend to treat my sweetie, dealing with typical pre teen issues, trying to understand why my paycheck doesn't go as far when I am making more than ever ( gas, groceries, etc are a big source of frustration) but somehow .....even though it's complicated, life is sure worth it.

I had a special Daddy moment tonight. Right after pulling the motor out of the hot rod , totally drained of energy and starving.....eating dinner....
My 17 month old daughter was playing with a keyboard that play little tunes and her mom told her to dance...which she promptly did. Very cute.
Then she called to her mom and held out her hand wanting mommy to dance , which she did of course. Even more cute.
Then of course my little baby girl held out her hand towards me and said - Daddy ! She wanted me to dance with her next. For just one or two seconds I considered making the excuse that Daddy was just too wore out to dance. But then I thought about how old I am (52) and having PD and it hit me that there was a pretty good chance I might not be able to dance with her one day sometime in the future. For sure not at her wedding. So we danced. First seperate, where I invented a new step called The Shaky Shuffle, and then with her in my arms twirling her around.
What a special moment brought to me by PD. If not for PD I would take that kind of thing for granted but instead, it's like the latin saying " Carpe Diem" - Sieze the Day ! Or in this case moment...which brings me to another saying I like - coined by a friend of mine who lost her battle with Cancer about five years ago. She said " Every one you don't take is one you don't get" meaning opportunities of any type.
So , you see it is complicated. I figure If I can find something about PD that I can be thankful for that makes a better person or Daddy, then my day was a success. Hope yours was as good as mine.
Next time I will tell you about my mistress......